im sorry. please forgive me!
-melissa- wishhed*
2:51 PM
-melissa- wishhed*
9:00 AM
do u know why im so unhappy... do u know what exactly happened to me?
i was very unhappy n sad...
coz u left me alone.
n i dont like u staying up so late. at outside some more. i understand u need to meet up with ur frens and spend time with them as well.
this is normal. in ur every relationship.
baby, i guess u really lack of the understanding of ur girlfriend.
to me, u're the whole world. i can meet non of my frens just to spend more time with you.
i can dont sleep just to accompany you.
do u still remember that longevity burger... i wanted to try for so long alr. but i juz wanted to wait for u n try with you. but when i told me, u had alr eaten it... yea.. i guess.. i was just being the silly one.
i know i love u too much... devoted to you alr. u mean the whole world to me now.
i cannot love a person so much. my whole life will turn upside down. frens n family... not as important as u. can sacrifies anything just to be with you. even my ex gf whom i used to love a lot. n cared a lot. tho she hurt me so so much.
im giving u everything.
im willing to spend everything on you. rather on myself.
i can dont eat... just to save that lil amount of money so that... we could hav a bit more.
i always looking forward to see you everyday. tho i might get disappointed sometimes.
u just mean so much to me. n u never know how lonely i m without u.
each day when u were not with me, im just alone in my room doin nothing. online, msn, chatting. no more. do u know how lonely i can be. all i hope is to c u asap. time passes faster. but it just seems as if tmr never comes.
sometimes i just feel very hurt of what u did n what u said.
i know it s the past... but i will still feel uneasy bout everthing. sighs.
im super anti social.
i guess u never know about this. i dont really love showing myself up to strangers.
i feel very uneasy and very fearful.
i just stay close to my own frens
sometimes even my close frens dont get to see me in more than 2 months or more. ''
only hui teng understands me.. the real me.
i dont wannna tell u bout this... i want u to be happy.
even tho i'm filled with the uneasiness, with all the sadness... n hurt...
i still want u to be happy...
must be happy.. for me n for urself...
i love you...
-melissa- wishhed*
8:34 AM
well...
im feeling depressed right now.. missing her so so much. so god damned much.
i really hate this feeling of missing and yet i love to miss her n not wanting this feeling to fade away. baby.. u're juz that important to me.
feeling lonely... depressed... without u by my side
i need u badly... real badly...
i hate not to have you around
i hate myself... for not controlling my emotions well
i hate being sad n disappointed
i hate feeling the easy-feeling-insecurities
i hate being jealous FOR NOTHING
i hate myself... sighs
im very moody
n im very depressed..
coz i miss her too much, i gguess
really hope to c u soon..
if not, i'll be even more depressed than now..
how i wish time would pass faster a bit..
juz a lil' bit will do..
juz a lil' bit will be enough
juz a lil' bit, i'll be satisfied.
baby... i need u so badly...
in my arms... and through the nights..
i love you
-melissa- wishhed*
5:21 AM
surfing thru the net... doin nothin... such a boring day without u by my side...
quite upset... normally, there'll u with me everyday, back to my house... change for u... bath for u... hug u n kiss u... miss the way u hold my hands n hug me when watchin our shows. really wish cud stay together with u n having u by my side forever. baby.. tell me u wun leave me. i need u...
i really miss u... we might not b able to meet up tmr too... its torturous n painful as well... being so lonely now. i realized that... baby... u've become my world.. my everything... i feel empty without u by my side now...
actually i felt veyr upset n disappointed when u said we wont b meetin tmr... but i never said it out... so used to being with u... n now, one or 2 days without seeing is killing me. baby... that's how important u r to me... really dunno what to do without u in my life...
baby, im sorry, coz i always hide my feelings. coz i think this will be much more better. for u not knowing. i want to concentrate on ur studies, n spend more time with family. although i hope that u will try to meet me up n spend time with me too. its always not enough dear... i hope to be satisfied n not feeling greedy but i juz cudnt help it... i love u too much. hope u know how i feel but im hiding it well... dear...
now i realized we really had a lot of memories together... i cudnt forget u nor wanting to forget u. u gave me lots of precious moments n u gave me love... or shud i say.. u're still giving me love. i wudnt ask for more dear... im already satisfied.
sometimes.. i juz hate myself a lot...
dunno y i feel sad... mayb its bcoz my whole heart is filled up with u.. n when u're not around.. making my heart completely emptied... i really miss u my dear..
but u wont b seeing this...
i love u .... my darlin..
im willing to give my all to u...
juz love u
[mel]
-melissa- wishhed*
11:03 PM
Labels: endless love''
darling ... i miss u so much.
4th months together... broke up with groover. together with jp.
i love her. in fact... i really really love her. so much.
sometimes i jux wonder if she feels the same way as i do. well... baby, u will
never know how important u r to me. insecurities... jealousy... hurtfulness... sigh..
no matter how much u hurt me... i will still love you.
-melissa- wishhed*
12:21 AM
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3:06 AM
long time never blog... so long so long so long. im having a relationship with a gurl now. mydear lao gong.. so miss her. really miss her a lot a lot.
dear dear. happy birthday
^^
-melissa- wishhed*
3:03 AM
monday 12/6
went to "The Mall" with my dear cousin. Happy to walk around with her.She's so cute n funny like b4. we r still so fren like b4. Got lots of stuffs to talk to her. sigh, gonna miss her lots coz i will be goin back soon. LEaving my hometown, leaving brunei. gonna miss my daddy a lot a lot. He's so pity, so boring over here. everyday doin the same thing. Well, im happy too coz im goin to meet my mum so soon. On thursday. yeah... ~~~ happy... mummy... mei mei. Dolly dear. hahah...
this is my cousin.. love her too!!!
-melissa- wishhed*
5:36 AM
-melissa- wishhed*
8:04 PM
read about a lot of articles bout duromine, panbesy, reductil, xenical etc...all kinds of slimming pills. The most popular is of coz both the 1st 2 drugs that i mentioned above. Damn Scary... side effects such as heart palpitations, dry mouth, insomnia. <<>
Duromine really reacts fast... highly-soluble in water. perhaps this explains y. Made u lost the crave for food. *lost of appetite* dun eat de whole day oso can... but of coz must force urself to eat smth no matter how. Coz if u quit taking this kind of pills, Ur appetite will b back, n u will want more food which results in the "yo-yo" effect. (which is losing n gaining weight back n yet much more than b4)
This drug is juz to giv u a start to keep a smaller diet. Then hav to get used to it. n transform this new diet into ur lifestyle after stop taking those pills. Well... what i read bout ppl who took this pills... All sure will get significant results within a short period of time. But this is not life-long. n mostly gain back the weight that they had lost + another few more pounds as soon as they quited. All slimming products
This pills will leave u bad symptoms behind. ALtho u'll c the results fast but this is not permanent unless u really stick to the kind of diet that u took during the medication of this pills.
Actually this pills r only for obese ppl. But what i read bout now... teenagers such as 17, 18 yrs old started taking this pills already. N they r NOT that fat. Juz tat they wanna b slimmer. *sigh*
Of coz losing weight using the traditional method will b better. Exercise more n keeping a healthy low-fat diet. Tho it'll take longer to c the results but at least itz permanent n healthier.
SLimming pills will only giv u instant results n will leave u a lot of problems behind. ppl who wanna take this pills... plz ask urself... is this worth? having a good body figure but damaged health. Is this Worth ur LIFE?
But humans r curious. they wun satisfied unless they try it themselves n obtain those results *bad n good
HEalthy or DamaGed Life?
-melissa- wishhed*
7:37 PM
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