wishhingg`

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

surfing thru the net... doin nothin... such a boring day without u by my side...

quite upset... normally, there'll u with me everyday, back to my house... change for u... bath for u... hug u n kiss u... miss the way u hold my hands n hug me when watchin our shows. really wish cud stay together with u n having u by my side forever. baby.. tell me u wun leave me. i need u...

i really miss u... we might not b able to meet up tmr too... its torturous n painful as well... being so lonely now. i realized that... baby... u've become my world.. my everything... i feel empty without u by my side now...

actually i felt veyr upset n disappointed when u said we wont b meetin tmr... but i never said it out... so used to being with u... n now, one or 2 days without seeing is killing me. baby... that's how important u r to me... really dunno what to do without u in my life...

baby, im sorry, coz i always hide my feelings. coz i think this will be much more better. for u not knowing. i want to concentrate on ur studies, n spend more time with family. although i hope that u will try to meet me up n spend time with me too. its always not enough dear... i hope to be satisfied n not feeling greedy but i juz cudnt help it... i love u too much. hope u know how i feel but im hiding it well... dear...

now i realized we really had a lot of memories together... i cudnt forget u nor wanting to forget u. u gave me lots of precious moments n u gave me love... or shud i say.. u're still giving me love. i wudnt ask for more dear... im already satisfied.
sometimes.. i juz hate myself a lot...

dunno y i feel sad... mayb its bcoz my whole heart is filled up with u.. n when u're not around.. making my heart completely emptied... i really miss u my dear..

but u wont b seeing this...

i love u .... my darlin..
im willing to give my all to u...
juz love u

[mel]

-melissa- wishhed*
11:03 PM

Monday, January 29, 2007

darling ... i miss u so much.

4th months together... broke up with groover. together with jp.
i love her. in fact... i really really love her. so much.

sometimes i jux wonder if she feels the same way as i do. well... baby, u will
never know how important u r to me. insecurities... jealousy... hurtfulness... sigh..

no matter how much u hurt me... i will still love you.

Labels: endless love''

-melissa- wishhed*
12:21 AM