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Wednesday, July 27, 2005

sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tong sum tongsum tong........y it's so painful to miss sum1? y si it so terrible. i really do feel tat i'm lost now. wat i wan? what i need? who i love actually? aii.....wat the world is love all about. i hav a person who treats me so well....but i dun appreciate. the one who i loved 4 so long... i couldn't let go n 4get. y? actually not tat i cant be wif him...then i dun wanna let go. it's juz tat i do feel he's my mr. right n he's the one. he has what i need in a bf. he could giv me the feeling. onli him. th feeling is like a thunderstorm..or mayb...an electric shock... when i c him...sure heart beats damn fast 1. ha.... this is called love. i know i still hav crushes... but compared to him... i juz couldnt let go of the feeling. he's juz too cute...

-melissa- wishhed*
3:17 AM

Sunday, July 24, 2005

-melissa- wishhed*
8:38 AM

i feel like i couldn't breathe anymore. i need air..help me..who can help me? im so desperate to be free. but i'm juz stuck in btween. what should i do? can any1 tell me. i'm juz so down.... he's pushin me, forcin me to giv answers which i do not know what or how to answer. he wans to be safe to himself. he's so selfish. he cares bout him onli. altho...he really put his heart down to me, but actually he juz take this as a "pelaburan". y? he juz calculate everything so clearly. n he wanna know the truth. who is he to me? he doesn't hav the rights to check my hp msgs, he doesn't hav the rights to question me like i'm a big criminal which had juz break the rules of our relationship. he's not my who....y should i tell him..n y should he know everything about me. i have my own privacy... i need to be alone now....completely solitude. i hate troubles....like this. lazy to answer anyway...juz let him b...

2day i saw him. juz a small glimpse of him made my heart aches like hell. his eye contact wif me..altho juz a few seconds...but it completely recall back out memory... how he hurts me so much... both the eyes looking at me...which had been once so familiar... i'm so sad... i juz couldn't let go. all these yrs...y? i dunno de reason n i know i couldn't find de answer... not now...not the future. he juz means TOO much to me. so.. i couldn't find a reason to let go. n i dun wanna find that reason. i hope .......... so........

-melissa- wishhed*
7:47 AM

Saturday, July 23, 2005

hi , im mely , this blog is done by my cousin Heidi .. hehe , so thanks for visitin , c'ya

-melissa- wishhed*
3:49 PM

This is my 1st pic in this blog.... juz let u hav a glimpse on how i look like. anyway.... take care!

-melissa- wishhed*
2:59 AM

-melissa- wishhed*
2:01 AM

thanks 4 my cuzzie...Heidi... 4 helpin wif the blog. so nice of her. i'm so glad to hav such a nice cuzzie. i luv u dear! u're the best. Next time if she has anything..sure i'll be the 1st to help her. ha... well... recently i hav sum probls. dunno how to say. sum1 treats me very good... n i do hope tat he wun treat me well... aii... i'm so fan la... he's a good guy. i hope we remains good fren. he treats me so good. he's such a gentleman, n nice, carin, funny n interestin. i scare one day i could not resist him anymore n do the wrong thing. i juz cant accept him. he deserves better girl. i'm juz not good enuff. i cant concentrate fully on him coz there's always a place in my heart for sum1. i know i'm stupid..but i juz couldn't let go. i will be waitin here. for all this yrs... i know i'm juz stupid. sorry. hope tat 1 day i'll realize how stupid am i.

-melissa- wishhed*
1:42 AM