i feel like i couldn't breathe anymore. i need air..help me..who can help me? im so desperate to be free. but i'm juz stuck in btween. what should i do? can any1 tell me. i'm juz so down.... he's pushin me, forcin me to giv answers which i do not know what or how to answer. he wans to be safe to himself. he's so selfish. he cares bout him onli. altho...he really put his heart down to me, but actually he juz take this as a "pelaburan". y? he juz calculate everything so clearly. n he wanna know the truth. who is he to me? he doesn't hav the rights to check my hp msgs, he doesn't hav the rights to question me like i'm a big criminal which had juz break the rules of our relationship. he's not my who....y should i tell him..n y should he know everything about me. i have my own privacy... i need to be alone now....completely solitude. i hate troubles....like this. lazy to answer anyway...juz let him b...
2day i saw him. juz a small glimpse of him made my heart aches like hell. his eye contact wif me..altho juz a few seconds...but it completely recall back out memory... how he hurts me so much... both the eyes looking at me...which had been once so familiar... i'm so sad... i juz couldn't let go. all these yrs...y? i dunno de reason n i know i couldn't find de answer... not now...not the future. he juz means TOO much to me. so.. i couldn't find a reason to let go. n i dun wanna find that reason. i hope .......... so........
-melissa- wishhed*
7:47 AM
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